Poems

Some are easy
Some are hard
Some have to be made
And some you can slack on
But what are the chances?
Decisions split your mind in two
Stressing on what’s right to do
At a crossroad it’s now or never
Here and now
What’s up, with the what’s up babyyyy!
No more games or time
What decision has come to your mind?
Decisions split in two
On what, when, where, why, and who

Are you with me or not?

Do you love me or not?
I mean yeah I’m hurting inside
but you’re all I got most of the time
it feels like I gotta have my own back,
but I know you love me
and I know you care
and if you really wanna be with me
then you’ll find a way for us to make it there.

Are you bout this or not?

Aren’t we a sure thing or not?
I ain’t gonna press or sweat you,
or this relationship any more
cause deep down I know what it is
(me and you together forever years)
but lets just at least try to work it out
for the betta & the best
cause as long as you’re with me,
who cares about the rest.…

I wonder what the world would be like in 10 years
Would it be the same that I do not know
I wonder where I would be in 10 years
Imagining what the future holds is lots of thinking for sure
I heard some people say they are making their our own future
Confused in my mind I don’t know if that is possible
I know I made a mistake but I didn’t chose to be here
To me life is unpredictable also it’s full of surprise
I feel okay about the unpredictable part
But full of surprises is scary sometimes
Cause sometimes things surprise the hell out of you
Like incarceration did to me but I’m not falling down
One day I will surprise life itself by getting out of here
Cause this is not what I want for my future
I just want to be with my family and have a normal life

It hurts real bad, knowing what I know

Only I know, you know what I show

But deep down the war is over

The flame has been put out

All weapons have been put down

Inside, there’s no more warriors standing

When I look around!

I’m throwing in the towel

Because I believe all is lost

I won’t chance winning, that’s

A line I won’t cross

Knowing that my life as I know it

I won’t get back again

I feel so much pain

That my tears should fall like rain

But they are stuck

-I guess I’m giving up

I want to have a Better Life
I could say that I want to have a Better Life
and try and do things Better in Life
and you just got to believe and be a Better Man

I feel like I’m drowning on land
I‘m in a place I can’t understand.
I need to get back to my water
Where’s the sharks when you need em’
here the creatures get mad when you don’t feed em’

I’m suffocating from this air
I floated out of my sea because I lived
without a care
Mama fish told, Sista fish told me
Here Ima ugly fish, even though Ima goldie!

I have learned to walk, even though
swimming was the right thing to do
I’m slowly dying, my face is turning blue.
Dear Great Sea I’m coming back to you
Soon, very soon I hope to make it
because a fish on land – CAN’T TAKE IT

Gasping for air, and I’m not acting.
Because outta the water, me, the fish
was missing in action!

You stayed over my house and I stayed over yours
Your mother would cuss you out then I’d help you with your chores
You took my favorite pair of shoes and didn’t give them back
I was always there for you it was no question I had your back
We was mans so close we told girls we was brothers
My mother loved you like a son you had 2 mothers
When you got jumped I did too so we both had bruises
Remember we used to steal cars for those late night cruises
But since I got locked up you left your friend hangin’
I’m my own friend in the end that’s the best way I can explain it

These 4 walls talk to me and remind me of a lot

Like the mistakes I made and life lessons I forgot

These walls are also dangerous you should never face them alone

Nightmares and cold sweats plus they’ll make you miss home

I’ve heard some go crazy straight holler and cry

They even beg for forgiveness just to tell these walls bye

Me, I’m just fine but how long will I last

It’s like time’s standing still Lord please let this pass

It’s crazy cause these walls got a name they call the SHU

As soon as you mess up they’ll be waiting on you

[*SHU= Special Housing Unit]

Time stops for no one and it’s evident cause I keep getting older

I just caught a flat tire so I’m fixing it on the shoulder

How much will things change the wheels still turning

Will I be forgotten like a tree in the middle of a forest fire burning

It seems the more I worry about this the more about life I’m learning

But I don’t have to reflect cause these wheels still turning

My Father always told me that you
will never know a good thing until
it’s gone I never felt what he
meant until this moment
now she’s long gone and
I’m trying to get her back.

M assages the mind
U nderstanding of emotion
S mooth
I nstrumental
C onnects people

“What did they say?”
“What does it mean?”
“What was the name of that clothing line?”
Damn, it’s like a whole new world
When couldn’t you not trust the person you called your homeboy
That ain’t right
But hey, new places, new rules
I guess I’m a fish out of water
But I’ll adapt