Feelings
By JS
I’m frustrated, I’m mad,
deep down inside I’m sad,
I messed up, I crashed,
I’m really down bad,
I see the light,
it moves further away if I accept my plight
so I struggle, I fight,
I pray that I’ll be guided and be alright.
A part of me feels like I’m dying, as I grow,
if I act like the old me I feel like I’m lying,
I want to live and have a lot to live for,
but living confined in these walls feels like trying to get in a locked door.
No break ins, just bad habits that I have to break out of,
it’s really easy but sometimes I make it tough,
soft hearted from hard,
refined from rough,
I see the road to success
but there is nowhere in here to give this new love,
people will take and keep taking,
Sometimes if I’m nice it feels like I’m faking.
Feelings of contradiction,
the old me was raw and the new me can’t show any feelings.
Sometimes I feel lost even though I’m right there, everyday fighting.
I’ve dreamed new dreams from living a nightmare.
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This is a beautifully written poem! I can relate to all of these feeling that you are feeling and I felt as if I was right there with you. I too sometimes feel lost and hopeless and find myself faking happiness when I am going through something but I just keep praying and hoping that the light will find me. Just keep praying to get through each day and keep writing these amazing poems and something good will definitely come in the future!
You have a talent for writing. It is alright to let yourself feel these emotions, we are human after all. It is never too late to go out and accomplish dreams. The ray of light will reach you and your prayers will be answered for God is always listening. Have hope and keep writing, be patient and kind to yourself.
Hi! This poem conveys a deep sense of struggle and inner turmoil. It reflects the frustration, sadness, and conflict experienced by you navigating difficult emotions and personal challenges. The imagery of seeing the light move further away if the plight is accepted, and the metaphor of living confined in walls that feels like trying to get into a locked door, effectively captures the feelings of entrapment and longing for change.
The internal conflict between the old self and the desire to live authentically and with purpose is palpable in the lines, “A part of me feels like I’m dying, as I grow, if I act like the old me I feel like I’m lying.” This struggle is relatable to many who have undergone personal growth and transformation. Keep up the great work!
The second stanza really spoke to me. Sometimes growing and changing hurts and I know what that feels like. Be proud of the changes and growth that you’re experiencing. You are already on the road to success and you will make it. You’re right, there are people in this world that take and be selfish, but there are also people that will love you, and be thankful for the love you give them. You can do this. (Also, keep writing! You’re good at poetry!)
I can feel the emotion through this. I just want to encourage you to keep going, keep writing, keep growing. I love the line “I want to live and I have a lot to live for”.
This was so beautiful. I promise you are not alone. I may not be confined in 4 walls but I fight a similar fight every day. I ask so many questions… am I good enough? am I being nice or is this fake? what will they think? Emotions are hard, and so are your inner thoughts. I think that is the worst thing a person has to overcome in their lifetime. I want you to know you are doing great, and your emotions are good. It’s a beautiful thing that you can express them though poems and let your feelings out on paper. I don’t know you but I am praying for you. Continue fighting.
This was heavy but enlightening as you shared your experience. New growth is hard and can be rough, but there is always a calm after the storm. I hope you find the inner peace that you write about and get the support for a new perspective on life. As far as the writing, I felt like this could be turned into a song, your lines are open to interpretation while also getting your point across, it’s great! Thank you for sharing.
JS – your word choice is impressive and adds a lot to your poetry. “The old me was raw and the new me can’t show feelings” that contradiction is powerful. I feel the same way sometimes. Keep up the great work!
This is really a good poem I like that I can imagine this feeling of finding. For improvement you could use stronger word than mad and sad. But overall great poem I rate it a 10/10. Keep up the good work.
Keep pushing keep dreaming and keep staying motivated to conquer the old you .Its worth the change I relate I been in them walls to 100
This was very beautifully written, I really enjoyed reading it
Everyone has messed up before. Everyone has made mistakes. Everyone feels sad sometimes. It’s all about staying strong. I know it can be hard to tell who you are, but trust me you will find it. I love all of your rhyming.
Your writing is beautiful. Your mind has and is gone/going through such a difficult journey and I hope your better now. I wish the best for you and to continue your road to success. Keep writing and expressing yourself and life will bring you the happiness you deserve.
This poem is very touching and has such a strong meaning behind it. It takes a lot inside to be able to voice feelings and show emotion and JS does an amazing job at explaining that feeling. Feeling trapped or stuck can be very frustrating but the only option is to keep fighting for what you want. It may seem tough or maybe you feel like these feelings will never get better, but they will, you will find a way to feel like yourself in your body.
That almost made me cry. I have felt all of those emotions in the past couple of years and it makes me feel so relieved and happy that I’m not the only one. Thank you for sharing because sometimes I am too scared to share and that inspired me to start sharing more.
I can relate to this a lot! Being a 13 year old black girl that attends a PWI comes with a lot of fluctuating emotions. Frustration, anger, sadness, and anxiety are only what is seen on the surface. It feels like nobody really gets why I try so hard and why I have to be great. It’s because there’s not a lot of people like me here so I have to break the stereotypes. Coming from a divorced home also adds to those strong feelings. Dealing with depression, anxiety, and loneliness and later moving and growing out of that meant breaking those bad habits. It feels nice to know that there are others in different situations that feel the same way I do.
I think it is worthy to note that your poem made me FEEL. Your words spoke to me and through me. I could feel the conflict and contradictory feelings you are having about the contrast between where you are mentally (ambitious and hopeful) vs where your body is physically (confined and restricted). Continue to be honest and vulnerable in your work because that is what your readers will respond to and please try not to lose sight of the light, however dim it seems to get.
The flow and rhyming is really cool. I liked the word use of “plight”.
I am not really able to relate to what your poem expressed, but I still felt all your emotions deep in my heart. Your writing is powerful and touching. I hope that something light and hopeful appears for you everyday.
A line in this poem that stood out to me was “the old me was raw and the new me can’t show any feelings.” It stood out to me because it is so meaningful and powerful in my eyes and how the experience you are going through is impacting you a lot. I will be praying for you.
I can really relate with your poem I can ack mad I ack annoyed but I’m really sad and tired school for me right now feels nothing
I really liked how in the first stanza you used a lot of ryhming which I thought the lines were really good. I also think that your choice of words and phrases really emphazies the amount of emotion in this poem. I also struggle with my feelings and sometimes feel very alone but it is always good to remember that no matter what you have to keep fighting and that there is someone out there who loves you. Also I think it is important that we do show emotion because it is what makes us human.
I love the way your poem evokes emotion; the combination of literary devices such as rhyming and word choice really help the reader connect with your message. The combination of more literally references with more theoretical ideas helps to make the larger message of an internal struggle come across to the reader. I love your writing style, and the structure of this poem works well co capture the difficult feelings it is describing.
JS, your poem “Feelings” is raw, honest, and deeply emotive. The way you express frustration, sadness, and the internal struggle to break free from old habits is incredibly relatable. Your words capture the complexity of human emotions and the journey of self-discovery with such authenticity!
JS, your poem is extremely moving. The emotions that come through in the poem are clear from your internal dialogue such as “I messed up, I crashed.” There is also a rhyme scheme that gives the poem rhythm, and a pattern-like feel. Your emotions seem to really come through in this way. This is what makes your writing excellent.
This poem has a powerful emotional depth that is really compelling. The way you use contrast, especially in lines like “soft hearted from hard, refined from rough,” highlights the inner conflict and transformation you’re experiencing. Your use of imagery, such as “living confined in these walls feels like trying to get in a locked door,” effectively conveys the struggle and frustration. The honesty in your words makes this piece resonate strongly!
This poem is a raw and honest portrayal of the internal struggles and battles we face in life. The vivid emotions expressed through each line create a deeply relatable experience for the reader, capturing the frustration, sadness, and determination to overcome adversity. The juxtaposition between feeling lost and fighting every day for a better future is powerfully depicted, highlighting the resilience of the human spirit in the face of hardship.
The imagery of trying to break free from the confines of one’s own limitations and bad habits is both poignant and inspiring. The journey from darkness to light, from feeling confined to dreaming of new possibilities, resonates with anyone who has faced challenges and yearned for growth and transformation.
Overall, this poem is a testament to the strength and courage it takes to confront our inner demons and strive for a brighter tomorrow. It’s a beautiful reminder that even in our darkest moments, there is always hope and the possibility of new beginnings.