The Start of a New End

By TC

Age one, living life as a toddler lucky enough to have a father and mother
Age two, growing up getting everything I want
Age three, feels like I’m getting taller by the month
Age four, traveling with my family having fun
Age five, I hopped off the porch, started going outside
Age six, it became a habit, hangin’ around older guys
Age seven, God took my grandfather up to heaven
Age nine, got exposed into the street life kinda
Age ten, started observing everything happening on the block
Age eleven, I was eager to get out of school, watching the clock
Age twelve, I watched Apple take his last breath
Why he gone?
Age thirteen, got locked up and I caught my first charge…

Something You Should Know

By LB

You should know that I was an orphan
Who never knew my biological parents
You should know I was left on the seat of a diner
In a town I never heard of
Bounced from different children’s shelters
Until the age of 7
You should know the only mother I ever known or will ever need
Took me into her home and raised me as her own
She always kept food in my belly
And clothes on my back
I miss her dearly
I pray to God that she bring her back

#R.I.P. G-Pops

By AME

You left so fast and I cried for days
I’ve been angry and beyond depressed
All these bottled up feelings are hard to express
I smoked so much weed and drunk so much drank
I didn’t even shower and ran the streets until I stank
Why did you leave when I needed you the most
I too wanted to disappear and be a ghost
I began to hate and be cold hearted
Trouble grew around me in which it all started
So many days are forever dark
I still see your body being rolled on that casket cart
I’m still hurting but I know God called you home
It’s just hard believing you’re really gone
I will see you again and oh what a day it will be
But in the meantime, I’m sorry for not being me
I’m growing stronger and have given my life to Christ
Although you’re gone I know heaven is nice
So please ask God continue to hold my hand
That through all this pain I can humbly stand

Dear DJ

By JM

Dear DJ,
I feel so left alone down here, but I know that ain’t the case
Memories throughout the years
The laughter and the tears, the love from all our peers
We set off on many journeys together to conquer all our fears
Now I cry so many tears
And though you feel so far away
I know you’re very near, I feel your presence everyday
Man, it devastated my heart to hear you passed away
But God has the final command—I hope mercy finds you in every way
I pray to be half the man you were, to earn God’s mercy in my own way
But for now I gonna keep on living hard
You wouldn’t have it any other way
Plus I gotta look at it this way, I gotta help your kids to gain
Then I smile at your smiling faces to cope with all the pain
Sometimes it seems like time is stuck in place, still hear echoes of your name
Could’ve swore I heard you call me the other day
Don’t take it wrong I can explain
My first cousin, but more close to me like a brother
Got love for you like a mother
There is peace believe it or not
I am struggling just to keep my face clean, I love you straight from my heart.

This One’s For You

By DM

Grandma, you nourish and protect me
From day one, I remember people thinking,
I was your child, and not your grandson.
As I got older, you were always the shoulder I needed to lean on.
Grandma, I get so fed up with this life,
And I miss you.
Tears are falling—someone pass me a tissue.
Yes Grandma, I cry because I love you,
And I promise I will not put no one above you.
Grandma, I still have that hole in my heart.
Now that you’re gone, it’s really torn apart.
I remember when you said that my biggest threat is me,
And since you left, I got caught up with some beef,
Looking for that love you gave me in the streets.
Now I know it’s not there,
So where do I get it from?
Now you caught up in the air.
I have to get this off my chest,
Because it has me stress,
Thinking I’m the reason behind your death.
You would probably be here
If I didn’t get caught up with that mess—
You would not have been stressed.
My mom said that I am selfish,
Because I want you here with me.
I agree, but I am empty.
And you make me complete.
Grandma, I know you would be proud,
Because I don’t hang around with the same crowd.
Grandma, in your eyes,
I did no wrong, even when I was wrong.
Grandma, I know you in a heavenly place,
With good health, body in shape—
With that Holy Spirit glow on your face.
Grandma, when I think of you,
It’s all smiles.
I’m not your grandson, but forever your child.
God bless you Grandma, I love you.