Poems

What happens to a Dream Deferred?
Does it get clear right before you wake up?
Is it one of your best experiences?
Does it put you in a place full of fun and love,
Then you wake up in a horrible place?
Do you forget it as soon as you finish sleeping,
Or do you never dream?

You are the success to your own achievements
Don’t ever, ever, never forget that!
You have come a far way to turn back
Just keep on moving you are almost there
Life is full of surprises and it definitely ain’t fair
You are in a long race so stay focused and keep runnin’
Don’t look back
Ease up
Prepare for what’s comin’
Let nobody get to you ‘cause you are who you are
Not who they think you are
You are created for a purpose
For something really special
Brave of the bravest you are
I know that for sure
You are genius as well
Don’t let your talents pour down the drain for nothin’
‘Cause that’s a waste
Let your abilities soar
One day you will find your place
Right now you are goin’ through a dark tunnel
Learnin’ meanings of life
Almost to your destination you will reach that light
With God in your mind
Your spirit and your soul
Everything is goin’ to be alright
You will win this fight for sure

Smiles that hide frowns are around so they won’t put people down.
I smile outside, but inside I frown.
I may seem happy, but unhappy I really am.
Why – you wonder, if you know me just look where I am!
Time goes by but my smile still stands.
Hurt I am because I am treated as more an animal than a man!
Hurt I am but hide it I’ve been taught, so smile I still can!
Hurt I am, but only me and other few know just how hurt I am!
Hurt I am but smile I do, because my frown people may not understand!

The time that I’ve wasted is my biggest regret
Spent in these places I will never forget
Just sitting and thinking about the things that I’ve done
The crying, the laughing, the hurt and the fun
Now it’s just me and my hard driven guilt
Behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built
I’m trapped in my body just waiting to run
Back to my youth with its laughter and fun
But the chase is over and there’s no place to hide
Everything is gone, including my pride
With reality suddenly right in my face
I’m alone, never scared, and stuck in this place
Now memories of the past flash through my head
And the pain is obvious by the tears that I shed
I ask myself why and where I went wrong
I guess I was weak when I should have been strong
Living for the money and the wings I had grown
My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown
As I look at my past it’s so easy to see
The fear that I had, afraid to be me
I’d pretend to be gangster, so fast and so cool
When actually lost like a blinded fool
I’m getting too old for this tiresome “game”
Of acting real hard with no sense of shame
It’s time that I change and get on with my life
Fulfilling my dreams for a family and wife
What my future will hold, I really don’t know
But the years that I’ve wasted are starting to show
I just live for the day when I’ll get a new start
And the dreams I still hold deep in my heart
I hope I can make it, I at least have to try
Because I’m heading toward death, and I don’t want to die.

Dust to dawn
while doing wrong
I felt alone
sitting at home
on the phone
still felt alone
going to school
breaking the rules
for what reason
I never knew
mistreated some people
called me evil
I just didn‘t
like some people
people asked me
why so mean
I didn‘t know
do you see?
now I do
I felt alone
never was I
I should‘ve knew
family‘s there through
everything always though.

Family is people
who is there for you no matter what.
Even if you wrong
or right they would be there
to put up a fight.
Sometimes in life I feel alone
but when I talk to my family
they say I‘m wrong.
Family is all I need
to keep my life going
and try to succeed.
I sit and ask myself who else
I need? nobody but family.
When a family member calls me
about problems I be there so quick
to help them solve them.
In this world all I need is family and me.

Yeah, you gone but never 4gotten, I can‘t believe it‘s true
I‘m dedicating this piece here from me to you.
It‘s been quite some time already,
and you‘re still fresh on my mind.
Why he had to take your life and not take mine
I finally see that that saying is true,
―When it‘s your time to go you‘re going‖
But I‘m just not trying to be a statistic having a good
life and going and not knowing
But hey, I have no type of say so who am I to judge?
Because in reality everyone eventually‘s gonna be in the mud
They say the good die young, that‘s the realest quote they say
I sit back wit tears in my eyes given my head a shake
You were my role model, the one that I admired
And known I‘m mad at the world, because your life has expired
But the family is keeping me afloat and on point showing me love
Saying ―She‘s watching over you from the heavens above‖
But I know you‘re in a better place, no more buffering, knowing what the pain was worth
But I just wish I can spend one more day
with you on God‘s green earth
But I‘ma stay strong, because that‘s what real men do
And don‘t worry about your young 1,because she‘s mines and I‘m gonna take care of her too

Ok dats enough being down and out, plus depressed
All dats gonna do is make me more and more stressed
You were they type of person who always
keep a smile on your face
Even when your days been up, down, or sideways
You had a pretty smile, with pearly white perfect teeth
So white that they looked bleached
That‘s just one thing that I‘m gonna miss the most
But I always look at your pictures
and give your obituary a kiss for hope
Knowin I look at life different, everything so brand new
But Big Sis, always remember that I love and will never stop missing u.
R.I.P.

Only if… you knew
What I know, what I see, what I feel
Then maybe my if would be your if
Then we could share my pain and
The question mark in my head will
Be easier to deal with.
Only if…
My only if would come to reality
Only if the judge could see inside of me
Then he/she would say, what if
I would have released him to begin
With… and I’ll be in my cell saying also…
Only if!

We were laying in your
Bed looking at the wall
The sun was dipping lower, I
Looked into your eyes.
You saw what I was feeling, and I
Know you felt it too.
We wanted time to just stand still,
Then forever there would be me & you
Why can’t we freeze this moment, return to it in time
Stay together thru the years, let it be known
That I’m yours & you’re mines.
So let us freeze this moment, store it
Safely away
Even if we leave this place we’ll return to it
when you come home you know what you do 2 me
You’re the only person that keeps me up.

I’m going crazy.

That’s what I do.

Is it a lie

or am I telling the truth?

I walk back and forth

and then sit,

and then I go to my room

I go crazy

that’s just the way

I am

crazy.

That how I am.

I disrespect time

Careless I drink and commit a crime

I don’t ask many questions

I don’t wish for many answers

Where can I find

Peace and prayer but instead

I drink and disrespect time.

I disrespect my God given family

I don’t go home, laughter becomes insanity

I blame my father for my upbringing

I blame my mother for not caring

My God given family has always been there treating

My disease of disrespecting

But still I don’t show much emotion for my

God given Family. I disrespect my purpose on Earth

I don’t understand what time is worth

Violence and hate consumes me

But I don’t agree with therapy

Dreams become nightmares

In the midst of the night I pray for life to be fair

Why do I disrespect myself?

I need a new path in my heart, it has to be felt

I disrespect by caring about being free

I accept fate and don’t want to change destiny

Time equals change

A pic of respect in a hole I will frame.

A Helping Word The pain of someone that you care about can hurt you too. You try to help as much as you can but sometimes you just can’t get through. Still don’t give up; that should make you try harder. When someone feels dumb you should help them feel smarter. If someone gives up on their self that don’t mean you give up on them. If you love someone no matter what you will always love them. My advice I try to give to whoever listens. My poems I write to try to help since the beginning.