Ashley, I’m Done Sorry
I guess you lied about everything you said
I can’t lie, you caught me slipping
Overlooking your position and lusting off of your appearance
Created love in the making
Not understanding it was more in the picture
Words can’t explain the hatred, pain, sorrow and despair in my heart
Sometimes I wonder how you feel in the dark
I gave you the keys to my heart
I thought you said the cheating would stop
No tears, you should have ran to the doctor
Look at everything you deprived me of
Life, time, age, sex, kids
I feel degraded, useless, pointless
And you say it happened before we started dating
No more lies
You broke the word “trust”
It’s been two years now and all we do is fuss and cuss
I understand now
Ashley, I’m done…Sorry
Ashley, I’m done…Sorry
I hear you crying
But it’s no healing
I see you dying
But it’s no stopping it
It’s all because of you
Ashley
I’m
Done
Sorry
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Hi.
This was painful to read. (I guess much more painful to write). And your gut-punch ending good writing.
I don’t know if this will help, but I am pretty old, and I want to say two things 1) NO ONE is in truth “useless, pointless” 2) Many of us have felt that way — with good reason, bad reason, no damn reason at all…
This was such an emotional poem – thank you so much for putting yourself out there like this. I know how difficult it might be to express these feelings after someone has betrayed you and done this to you, but you did it in such a beautiful way.
I’m so sorry that this happened to you but I want you to know that you aren’t useless or pointless. You are full of love and hope and passion. Your love was never, ever wasted. A friend of mine told me that once and I’ll never forget it. Going through things like this will lead to immense growth – and that growth and healing isn’t linear. You’ll have good days and bad days but they’re all going to help you see clearly.
I really love your repetition of the line: “Ashley, I’m done…Sorry” it feels very heartfelt and soft, which I like. It’s really interesting that you capitalize the first letters in “Ashley / I’m / Done / Sorry” because it spells out the word “AIDS” – I wonder if that has anything to do with it? Was that something you consciously did?
Either way, this was so raw and emotional and I’m sure it felt great to get this down and off your chest. I hope you find someone who treats you like gold.
Best,
A
Wow, this was an intense piece to read. Your emotions are so strong and expressive throughout your language. The poem leading up to the ending was so well written and intense throughout, but I was not expecting the ending. The ending was so powerful after reading throughout this relationship’s progression, and I can only imagine what a painful emotional experience this is. This poem was so well written and emotion provoking, but I am so sorry you went through this experience.