Mom I Wonder Why

By MC

When I had my appendicitis
And my first major surgery
You were right there
And I felt your compassion, concern, and care

When my feet would break out every summer
And I couldn’t walk without pain
You were right there
And I felt your compassion, concern, and care

When I had that heart attack
And had to be rushed to the hospital in an ambulance
You were right there
And I felt your compassion, concern, and care

When I had my tonsillectomy
And hemorrhaged all that blood
You were right there
And I felt your compassion, concern, and care

Yes, anytime in my life, I’ve suffered
An ailment that was clearly physical
You were right there
And I felt your compassion, concern, and care

But when I was distraught over our move
From the only home I’d ever known
Even though you were right there
I didn’t feel your compassion, concern, or care

And when I was homeless
And being abused by my brother-in-law
You were not there
And I didn’t feel you compassion, concern, or care

And when the depression and anxiety took over
And I turned to you for help
Though you were right there
I did not get your compassion, concern, or care

Now that I am locked away from everyone I love
And I feel more alone than ever before
Though when I call you, you are physically there
I no longer feel your compassion, concern, or care

Why anytime I’ve suffered ailments that aren’t physical
Though the pain is still very, very real
You are never there
With your compassion, concern, or care?

Need Some Help

By AH

These walls are closing in slowly but surely

Everyday it’s getting harder 4 me to breath

It’s like I’m not the man I once used to be,

but I know they won’t believe me

My heart screams 4 love, but it’s ignored every time

What will it take 4 me to truly unwind?

I guess I’m scared to let the world know the real me

Could it be that I’m my own worst enemy?

If these walls would talk they would tell a deep story

About a boy that grew up lonely and hungry

With a tear stained pillow and a heart full of hate

With an empty stomach and a heart full of broken faith

No guidance nor supervision

Never told to be quiet, shut up and listen.

A man before my time

Lived hard before I even got a chance to live

I remember telling myself that something’s gotta give

There’s no greater pain than a neglected child’s

No love in my house hold and u expect me to smile

Come on, let’s be real, I am to you what I am to everybody else

A troublesome youth that needs some help