I Wonder Why

By MC

Sometimes it feels like pain is my destiny
I’m emotionally imbalanced and mentally fried
My social is cool but I don’t know these guys
My pain is not outer it’s more within
Not a broken finger but a promise
A lie told from a friend
My heart normally beats love
It’s been beating poison out lately
Not a gift but a curse
The upside-down frown just got straightened

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  1. Caitlin on July 23, 2020 at 2:58 PM

    Wow, I felt this. Keep writing because it definitely resonates with people.

  2. Tara C on September 1, 2020 at 8:47 PM

    I loved this poem and I found every line incredibly powerful. One of my favorite lines is, “I’m emotionally imbalanced and mentally fried.” The way you write about your emotions through analogies is so interesting and impactful. I think that it’s really important to talk about our feelings – or at least write about them through poems or journal entries. It’s great that you have this creative outlet to share your feelings.

  3. Piper on October 6, 2020 at 11:59 AM

    This really resonated with me because one of my friends also constantly describes how she feels like the world is out to get her and “pain is [her] destiny.” You’re not alone! We all feel alone sometimes. Even people who look like they have everything at their disposal and are the happiest people aren’t. Even Robin Williams, a man every one (including myself) thought was the happiest person because he was so funny, bright, and smiley. But then he committed suicide and we all started to reevaluate what it really means to be happy and feel pain. We need to know that we aren’t alone in this life, or this pain. You’re not alone. I hope this little nugget of a comment helps you in anyway. Your poem was beautiful, and I hope you remember how amazing you are.

  4. Krystal Ramos on October 6, 2020 at 5:58 PM

    This was very beautifully written. I felt this on a very emotional level and will hold this dear to me. The first line really struck me. It is nice to know that I am not alone in the way I feel. Some days I sit there and wonder why me, why do bad things only happen to me. I always felt maybe that’s just the way life is. I always put on such a happy and cheery face but at times I myself am drowning. Then there are other days where I provide nothing but love and positivity to those who surround me. Thank you for sharing this.

  5. Adam Gaydos on October 9, 2020 at 10:29 AM

    This poem expresses the struggle that the author is going through. It can also be relatable to many people who put on a mask when they wake up to hide all of the things that are stressing them out. “My heart normally beats love It’s been beating poison out lately” This quote can mean a number of things but to me, it might mean that something very bad happened to the author which changed their entire way of thinking. I feel like a lot of people can learn something from this poem. It illustrates that people are not always what they seem and people do not know what others are going through. The author kept it simple yet very relatable and powerful. Simplicity can be the most moving way of writing a poem.

  6. kassidilenae on October 13, 2020 at 1:22 PM

    MC,

    The lines, “My heart normally beats love, It’s been beating poison out lately,” are very powerful. Sometimes our biggest battle is within us. We all struggle to grasp the internal strength we desire. Keep sifting through these tough emotions through your writing. You are not alone, and we hear you. Thank you for sharing this with us.

    KC

  7. Joyce on October 14, 2020 at 2:17 PM

    Hi MC,

    Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your feelings and pain. I think this is relatable for many people even if they are in a different situation than you — many people feel mentally drained and have inner pain that they hide on the outside. As you mention, it’s especially painful when someone breaks a promise or a friend lies — this is emotional and mental, not physical pain, but it can be just as impactful. I am sorry you have endured this pain, but hope that you are healing and good things will happen in your future! I think acknowledging your feelings is a good way to begin coping with them and overcoming them. I hope you are able to stay motivated — there are people who are rooting for you! The future will be brighter!

    Best wishes,
    Joyce

  8. Char on October 18, 2020 at 4:23 PM

    I really like your writing. I know times can be really hard and it is easy to be down on yourself. In any ways you find possible, fall in love with life. Find that person who used to beat love. I am thinking of you and praying for you. Never stop writing.

  9. Kennedi on October 19, 2020 at 11:32 PM

    This poem was very well written. It shows a lot of emotions that you are trying to portray and you are doing a very good job! Keep up the good work!

  10. Bryan on October 20, 2020 at 7:38 PM

    This is well written. I think that everyone can relate to this to some degree but obviously we are not in your shoes. I believe that one should let go of hate in their heart because there is nothing that comes out of it. Step back and reflect on oneself, on one’s situation, on one’s world. Sometimes there are times where you need to move on. I really enjoyed this poem and your style. Great job!

  11. Steffy on October 20, 2020 at 8:30 PM

    I truly connect with this poem. Everything will get better. It is hard right now or it might be even harder in the future, but that upside down from will turn into a smile. That pain you fill will be your strength. And that poison will eventually go away. Stay strong!

  12. kassidilenae on October 27, 2020 at 2:53 PM

    MC,

    Thank you for sharing this poem. I love the line, “my heart normally beats love, it’s been beating poison out lately.” This is a powerful image! It is hard when we feel as if we have lost ourselves, when everything around us feels upside down. You are not lost. You are still capable of becoming everything you desire to be. Keep writing!

    KC

  13. kiana on October 30, 2020 at 3:04 PM

    MC,

    The raw vulnerability and emotion in this self-reflection is truly incredible. Describing inner pain is so hard and is something that I struggle with, so the way you articulated it really spoke to me. Please keep writing and stay strong!

  14. Angela on October 31, 2020 at 4:27 PM

    I love how the title of the piece also functions as a first line of the poem, setting up the thoughts that follow. This is a really interesting stylistic choice, and it conveys the message of the poem very clearly.

  15. Clifford on November 20, 2020 at 5:05 PM

    MC. This poem shows true emotion. I can tell that every word has meaning.

  16. AKB on December 4, 2020 at 1:23 PM

    I loved this poem very straight to the point and relatable. I feel that many can relate to this poem especially at this time. It is important to always remain positive. Things do get better even when it feels like they never will.

  17. Sabryn Ferchichi on December 16, 2020 at 4:59 PM

    MC,

    As someone who suffers from anxiety and depression, it’s a constant battle to convince myself that I’m more than the emotions that plague me. I emphasized with this well thought out poem thoroughly and I’m thankful you shared it. I love the line, “Not a broken finger but a promise,” that correlates with the idea that there’s pain that engulfs us that you can not see.

  18. Ayzhiana Basallo on March 30, 2021 at 5:05 PM

    I really resonated with the first line of your poem. Sometimes I feel that pain is my destiny too. I feel like I am always going through something. I feel your pain, keep writing. Writing helps me a lot.

  19. Ayzhiana Basallo on April 1, 2021 at 2:08 PM

    I love this poem, it is short and sweet and to the point. At times I also feel that pain is my destiny as well. I feel like I cannot get away from it sometimes it feels like. But do not worry you will find your way and hopefully you will not feel like that anymore.

  20. Ashley Steele on April 2, 2021 at 6:44 PM

    Wow….. this poem is so great. The pure emotion that you convey in just ten lines is insane.

    I loved the imagery here: “Not a broken finger but a promise” and “My heart normally beats love / It’s been beating poison out lately” ahhhhhh those were so great, they could be song lyrics!

    The sense of being stabbed in the back from a close friend comes through really strongly. I’m so sorry that you had to go through this.

    The part about being emotionally imbalanced and mentally fried really resonates strongly with me for reasons that I’m sure are different than yours but you write in a way that is so universally understood. 🙂

    Thank you for being so emotionally open and vulnerable here. Poetry is such a great way to let all of these feelings out in beautiful ways.

    Best,
    A

  21. Meg on April 8, 2021 at 9:55 PM

    I appreciate your vulnerability in writing about this topic. Mental health issues are not talked about enough in society. Sometimes it is okay not to be okay. We all have our inner battles, and some days are worse than others. Push through and better days will come.

  22. Julia Rinaldi on April 11, 2021 at 9:16 PM

    MC,

    Wow. This was extremely powerful. Many people can relate to your words here, and it is important to inform you that you are not alone in your fight. Thank you so much for expressing yourself to us, keep writing, as I feel writing is a comfortable outlet to let out your feelings.

    Julia Rinaldi

  23. Maria Mione on April 15, 2021 at 4:19 PM

    This poem shows true emotion of unhappiness and just discomfort, and it’s written so the reader feels this pain too. That’s an amazing quality to portray in your writings.

  24. Anna on April 16, 2021 at 5:34 PM

    Hey MC, I really enjoyed this poem! It is very well written and thank you for being vulnerable with us! I am hoping that things have gotten better, but stay positive! Thank you for sharing this!

  25. Saini M. on April 17, 2021 at 3:47 PM

    MC,

    I relate to this poem having gone through my own battles where it feels like poison comes out of my heart. Its not easy to get through and the “pain” feels like it will be around forever, but trust me it goes away! This poem spoke volumes to me and I thank you for sharing your work with us all! I hope you can feel the love beating from your heart soon because it is there!

    Stay strong and thank you again!

  26. Linda on April 17, 2021 at 11:27 PM

    I think mental health is not taken seriously enough. Even if one is only hurt in the heart, it can sometimes be so much more serve than just a broken finger or bone. I think love is what makes living worth it, and if that is broken, it can be harder to repair than just getting a cast. I hope you can find a way to love again, but take your time. A broken promise cannot be mended, but with the right person, it would be worth it. Stay strong and I hope that upside down frown can come back soon!

  27. Katie on April 28, 2021 at 2:18 PM

    MC,
    This poem is something that I felt and resonated personally with deeply. The lines “Not a broken finger but a promise” stuck out to me. I feel that this line was the perfect way to describe the point you are trying to get across. As someone who has had important “pinky” promises broken and my trust in people has been lost, this line feels like the words I have been searching for to describe what I feel, and I’m sure other readers can relate. The title also fits so well with the content written without having to explicitly mention the title in the poem.This poem was so creative and personal, I hope you continue to always write like this. Writing is a good outlet for expressing your feelings and inspiring others to do the same.

  28. Katie on May 3, 2021 at 3:53 PM

    MC,
    Your heart may be beating out poison now, but it wont for long. Just by your words I can tell you are mentally strong. While this internal battle may be a tough one I think poetry may be a way to help you fight it. Poetry is giving you the power to fight it, poetry can be your escape. I want you to fight it by expressing that poison and showing it to the world. Because by doing that you are asking others for help in fighting a battle that would be so difficult on your own.

  29. Samantha on May 14, 2021 at 5:29 PM

    MC,

    This poem is very emotional in a real way. What you express hits home for so many folks. Thank you for using your poetry to share and be so open about your feelings!

    Best,

    Samantha

  30. Julia on October 14, 2021 at 2:44 PM

    This poem is very good and shares a lot with the reader. Each line held power and emotion, and my favorite is “Not a finger broken but a promise” because it supports the line before about how your pain isn’t external but internal. Sometimes internal pain can be even worse because our minds hold so much power on us. It looks like poetry is a source to let this pain out, because you are an amazing writer. Thank you for sharing!!

  31. Shea A on April 28, 2022 at 3:18 PM

    Dear MC,

    I am currently holding back tears as I am writing this comment. Never have I ever felt so connected to someone that I do not even know. The first line of this poem alone sold it for me, “Sometimes it feels like pain is my destiny”. Wow, just wow, I have personally felt this way a lot over the past year and a half. Not because of the pandemic but for other personal things that have happened. You write, “My heart normally beats love, it’s been beating poison out lately” I love the use of metaphor here, it really expresses how the mental and emotional imbalance within the speaker is “poisoning” his kind heart. It is the feeling you get when the world just does not seem like it is getting any better and it is closing in on you, it is a dark place. Sometimes I feel like “pain is [my] destiny”, but my friends and family have been my backbone when I feel this way. They help bring out the light when I am in the dark. Lastly, I cannot leave you this comment without thanking you for writing such a powerful and emotional poem.

    Best wishes,
    SA

  32. Griffin on May 9, 2022 at 10:04 AM

    This is an awesome poem and it was really meaningful. Keep writing because you are great at it.

  33. Anna Carpentiere on October 3, 2022 at 12:09 PM

    This poem is very emotional and persuasive. I can connect to this poem and find it relieving that others feel the same way. It’s okay to break down, but holding it in becoming mentally fried is not good. Social situations can be awkward for people but exploring outside of your comfort zone will help situations become less award and stressful. There are lots of I wonder whys in my life, there are also lots of answers to I wonder whys. You got this and remember the best is yet to come!

  34. Liz on October 16, 2022 at 4:56 PM

    I found the wording pretty inspirational and gave it a beat. It was really meaningful. Thank you for sharing with us.

  35. Julia Santosuosso on November 11, 2022 at 9:03 PM

    It is very easy for difficult emotions to feel like they were made for us; like they are all we are capable of feeling. But I promise you that is not the truth. You are capable of finding happiness, but sadly it might just take time and lessons to get there. Your righting of these feelings is great, and I loved the honesty in your words. No sugarcoating, no beating around the bush, just the truth of your struggle. You may not see it, but there is beauty in that. There is beauty in you. Thank you for sharing.

  36. Kayla on December 5, 2022 at 5:57 PM

    Everyday is a battle with your own self. Some days it feels like your brain is fighting against you when its supposed to be on your side. I suffer from anxiety and depression and let me tell you I understand. Some days are better than others, but then other days can become really bad and you become mentally exhausted. Try to do more things for yourself, even if its just little things like getting out of bed and little by little things will turn brighter, but in the mean time focus on the one staring back at you in the mirror and start loving them.

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